my family is starting to get on my lask f**king nerve like no kidding im so tired off them. i somtimes being a teen girl just makes me want to die just dissapear run away idk just do someting. i wish i lived with my mother but nope that can't happen because my life just has to be so complicated . on a kinda good note i am going to be with "panda" after school tomrrow which should be losts of fun and im hope there will be no talking involed but who knows. he is helping me study for my perodic table of elements test which i like failed today so we have another one on friday.  you know i think that the only person or thing that i can really get along with in this house is my dog and sometimes i don't like her very much either.
  this week is spirt week which is so far going very well. today was gender bender day which was lots of fun and i looked "HOT" just saying lol. im super tired and hating life so im going to bed good night to all!!!

i feel like he wants me to be his secrest like he wants to be with me but when it comes to being in front of people he is just not into it. i don't  know maybe its me or is it him i have like him forever and i have waited for this monent for like the past 3 years but for some reason it just feels wrong. but i don't want to move on have to think WHAT IF. i wish i had someone to talk to about this i guess we will just have to see won't we!! well i have school tomrrow and i get to see him so i hope this all goes well WISH ME LUCK!!!

     OK maybe im taking this way to far who knows because i really don' t know. my life is just way to much for me to handle. i sometimes feel like there is nothing i can do to help my very weird situations. you see i am the median in about 10 of my friends relationships even my best friends which im not so ok with but that besides the point kinda.                                                                              My friends expect way to much from me its crazy im only one person but to then im like the goddess of relationships but the funny thing is im not even in a relationship ahhaah. maybe they need more help than i do . im going to take a shower and havemore Eggo's chocolate  chip waffles and then go to bed till next time!!!

sometimes i wounder why high school is so complicated i just don't get it. so this guy that i like is now dating my best friend i think it best that we don't say his name. but any way for the past 2 months i have started to like this guy like you don't even know and out of no where she comes along and this just happens. i sound like such a bad friend urrrrgggg. and the other thing is he asked her out just TONIGHT  and she still has not texted me to tell me which is really making me mad. And to make matters worse i kind hooked them up with out even trying someone help me i don't know what to do. HELP ME